Cabaye CAptain1
Elder Lister
2023 has been a hellish year for me.
Shit started when AI replaced my main job and my source of income was cut.
From then on, it has been a slippery slope. Wife gone, friends gone, rental arrears, started a mtumba biz (failed). Job applications here and there. Couldn't even afford phone airtime.
Then, shit entered my head. Thoughts of being worthless. Thoughts of knocking on heavens door. Thoughts of ending it all. But I held on.
The pain of returning home this dec without anything, empty handed. Couldn't even buy sweets for kids who call me uncle.
2024 will be tough, but I'll soldier on. I am thinking of acquiring new skills (like plumbing, electrical, etc).
Heck, I like being behind a laptop. I could even venture into programming. I know some python. Used to web scrape emails, e commerce sites, linkedin, etc..
or should I go back to school to learn software development? I cannot self-learn, since I'll be alone in a room learning. Being solo in an empty room could trigger suicidal thoughts.
A VERY TOUGH 2024 AWAITS ME.
Shit started when AI replaced my main job and my source of income was cut.
From then on, it has been a slippery slope. Wife gone, friends gone, rental arrears, started a mtumba biz (failed). Job applications here and there. Couldn't even afford phone airtime.
Then, shit entered my head. Thoughts of being worthless. Thoughts of knocking on heavens door. Thoughts of ending it all. But I held on.
The pain of returning home this dec without anything, empty handed. Couldn't even buy sweets for kids who call me uncle.
2024 will be tough, but I'll soldier on. I am thinking of acquiring new skills (like plumbing, electrical, etc).
Heck, I like being behind a laptop. I could even venture into programming. I know some python. Used to web scrape emails, e commerce sites, linkedin, etc..
or should I go back to school to learn software development? I cannot self-learn, since I'll be alone in a room learning. Being solo in an empty room could trigger suicidal thoughts.
A VERY TOUGH 2024 AWAITS ME.