I was so excited after a long week I just wanted to get to my house and …oh well who do we have here.Ex’s never cease they say.
Not him and certainly not today!He picked the wrong day..Friday evenings are mine for God’s sake..the days I live for..the day I just want to unwind and turn my bathroom into a whole chimney with the music up .
Life is good on Friday nights..
Especially when you are an introvert who loves staring at space for no reason whatsoever.
No,not depressed! just chilled
Okay it’s been 8 months or is it a year since we went separate ways .Just how many more does he need Because it’s starting to feel like some obsession here.
Fineee I know i cried myself to a therapist but this was not funny anymore .He needed to get over it.
I open the door and let him in ,not just because I know he’s been on a bus for 2hours to get here but also yes he deserved it ,some respect!ah this one sure did .
You are told to treat people good you never know when it comes in handy well today it did come in handy for this one. Because
If it was just another guy I’d lock him out real quick
I Make him comfortable even with a full attitude and change into my shorts , not to put him in a fix or anything I just wanted to feel easy in my house..It’s Friday you know..
I reach for my safe and get the fatest baby in there,don’t I just love my plug .
This is to lost love. let’s ash the memories away..
I lit the lighter and he chockes on water or was it the smoke.Whichever , he knew better than to ruin this moment .
A few puffs and I pass it to him but he obliges.i thought so.
How time Changes..
A year ago we were so inseparable ..
But today, Today we are sitted in this house so silent like he was my plumber and i just wanted him to say whatever it is and get the fuck out..
We were so close that I didn’t realise he needed his personal space, because i swear to God I didn’t need any myself ,space my ass.He was my space.
But I guess he had that on the nights because I use to sleep so early.. damn I sleep early when my life is in order and for those 2years was it just not?
Lucky enough he was a night owl and loved to do his things on the night ,so on most nights I passed out leaving him doing his projects, watching series that we couldn’t watch together,Vikings and the likes or gaming with his brother online.
And on nights that I was lucky to turn in my sleep and find him up he knew what it was, ‘putting me back to sleep’
The room was starting to get weirdly silent so I went to connect my little system on, damn it I keep saying I’ll call Fred,my neighbor to fix this naked wires,
‘What are you doing,the switch is on’
I hear him say so loud reaching for me .
Shit my high ass didn’t notice that.
Okay okay big man ,do your thing, I say in my head putting my hands up in surrender
I watch him fix it and insert the flash disk back.
Selena Gomez on play, oh what a coincidence.
His favourite,
Reminds me how he stan Selena so much and I know he didn’t even realize that…as in if he was ever asked who his celebrity crush was or something like that,I’m pretty sure he wouldn’t know what to say ,but Selena it was! I noticed how he got mad at the comments when people kept bringing up Justin Biebers name everytime Selena was winning .lol.
But isn’t that the point of being loved ,you let the other person see you naked,naked in the inside..you let the other person see what you don’t even know you have yourself…
They say the last is the best but may I please correct that,my first was the best,the inexperience, adventure and pain that came with it still lingers on my mind and may I never be put to compare that to anything.
Its like when naive meets naive ..
I Won’t even lie ..his game wasn’t top tier but his thing was so big like big and I’m so honoured to have had my first time with that..
That there was a blessing.
Although we broke my ting for a month.Because anytime he was in, even for 2seconds and it got painful I asked him to stop and he did just that.
Poor guy.
And i knew i joined the club when he came too first one time and his thing shrunk leaving me undone.i couldn’t even hide my annoyance,I wanted him so bad that night and I bet he thought it was the usual 2 seconds.
My nigga didn’t know i graduate.
He was so guilty.
He was the person I told all my dreams..you know those dreams that are so disgusting and scarry and you have to say them aloud so they don’t happen in real life.. well,I hear dreams work like that.Jokes on me.
He picked me up when I was naive .. freshman! my first year in campus,when I wanted to stare at everything, literally everything ..
And by naive I really mean he was there to witness me embarazzzz myself all the time, even on the times I couldn’t tell the difference between flavours like vanilla and strawberries..so when we was in an ice cream shop or yourghut store and I wanted vanilla I’d say
‘niekee Io ya white ‘
nigga couldn’t wait till we were out to mimick me.And we would laugh at me so hard.
Being naive with the right person is so sweet.You just sit there and be yourself
But you know what they say about humans?
Man is not perfect.Man is to err.
it’s like God had to put a fault in everyone of us while moulding us in his ,what we call ‘image and likeness’ and for my man he put alittle bit of cuteness overload of height some shyness,a whole lot of kindness,a pinch of tidiness in him and one hair of beard ..and then he put a monster in him ,he forgot to balance his emotions..
And that’s how I ended up with a man with so much anger issues .Mine had the worst and that was the only thing that sent me packing .
He could send a glass flying past my face or anything that he had at hand.break windows, mirrors ,crashed his phone knocked his hands on a wall even when his team lost one time.
. Just God knows how many nights we spent nursing his hands if not face.
One time he went to the kitchen furious and I yelled ‘no no’ because I really thought he was going for a knife and he laughed .
See madnesss.He kept saying ‘i can never hurt you’
But could you really trust a man who had two complete opposite sides and you don’t even know when he’ll switch to another.
Fadalord!
I never even got to thank you for letting me get out of it in one piece because I never thought I would .
Boy locked the door because I’m the type to pack and leave when things get ugly..
So with time he got smart and rescued the door first thing anytime we had a fight leaving his bathroom be my only rescue when things got heated up..The same bathroom that had seen me moaning also saw me mourning ..
When I was placed on top of that water tank in the bathroom and done good..
And when i was frightened and locked in.
I was getting a little high and the room intense.. but to say he was taking advantage damn i would be lying..
I put this boy through alot and he deserved a last bang or something..
I’m not sure if it was me still speaking or the blunt
But Whatever it was ,kesi badaae
He puts me in and I whisper
‘slowly’ ,
‘What do you mean?this was your first ,it should be compatible I thought’ he says mischievously..
he wasn’t even flirting he was right..
But ‘Aint nobody hit it since you hit it
So hush, hush now..
It thrilled me how he wasn’t so good with words but damn you! he who said actions speaks louder than words wasn’t even bluffing..
This day on my best friends birthday a house party in white as in nothing but smoke.
Except he was alittle tipsy and I was drunk inlove sitted on the love of my lifes’ lap ,and everytime that chain reached us he made sure I took only 2puffs that I chocked on and passed.
People just wanna chill and laugh..
And he stands to pick my bestfriend.
Boy never even dance but he put his hands on her waist moving with every Rythm and making every bit of her day and I was smiling so hard cheering like my best team was on board..
He took one for the team!
And he don’t even know that, that was the happiest day of my life ..
Life is so unfair,it doesn’t even alert you on nothing, because if it did I would have made sure to feel that love twice and take in those memories thrice..
Huskii the best moments in life huwa hunotice until they come to pass
Goddamn it,I almost married my bestfriend,I had a home! now the streets are too cold.
But we are told nothing is permanent huh
You know my bitch also tattooed this niggas name on her arm only to go different ways a month later, and i swear to God it was nothing that couldn’t be fixed.. Maybe the forces of the earth ,fate and motherfuckin destiny were just not in line with their love .
So when you have that that makes you happy .You hold onto it with hope so much hope and embrace the shit out of it as it lasts.
@chebet
Not him and certainly not today!He picked the wrong day..Friday evenings are mine for God’s sake..the days I live for..the day I just want to unwind and turn my bathroom into a whole chimney with the music up .
Life is good on Friday nights..
Especially when you are an introvert who loves staring at space for no reason whatsoever.
No,not depressed! just chilled
Okay it’s been 8 months or is it a year since we went separate ways .Just how many more does he need Because it’s starting to feel like some obsession here.
Fineee I know i cried myself to a therapist but this was not funny anymore .He needed to get over it.
I open the door and let him in ,not just because I know he’s been on a bus for 2hours to get here but also yes he deserved it ,some respect!ah this one sure did .
You are told to treat people good you never know when it comes in handy well today it did come in handy for this one. Because
If it was just another guy I’d lock him out real quick
I Make him comfortable even with a full attitude and change into my shorts , not to put him in a fix or anything I just wanted to feel easy in my house..It’s Friday you know..
I reach for my safe and get the fatest baby in there,don’t I just love my plug .
This is to lost love. let’s ash the memories away..
I lit the lighter and he chockes on water or was it the smoke.Whichever , he knew better than to ruin this moment .
A few puffs and I pass it to him but he obliges.i thought so.
How time Changes..
A year ago we were so inseparable ..
But today, Today we are sitted in this house so silent like he was my plumber and i just wanted him to say whatever it is and get the fuck out..
We were so close that I didn’t realise he needed his personal space, because i swear to God I didn’t need any myself ,space my ass.He was my space.
But I guess he had that on the nights because I use to sleep so early.. damn I sleep early when my life is in order and for those 2years was it just not?
Lucky enough he was a night owl and loved to do his things on the night ,so on most nights I passed out leaving him doing his projects, watching series that we couldn’t watch together,Vikings and the likes or gaming with his brother online.
And on nights that I was lucky to turn in my sleep and find him up he knew what it was, ‘putting me back to sleep’
The room was starting to get weirdly silent so I went to connect my little system on, damn it I keep saying I’ll call Fred,my neighbor to fix this naked wires,
‘What are you doing,the switch is on’
I hear him say so loud reaching for me .
Shit my high ass didn’t notice that.
Okay okay big man ,do your thing, I say in my head putting my hands up in surrender
I watch him fix it and insert the flash disk back.
Selena Gomez on play, oh what a coincidence.
His favourite,
Reminds me how he stan Selena so much and I know he didn’t even realize that…as in if he was ever asked who his celebrity crush was or something like that,I’m pretty sure he wouldn’t know what to say ,but Selena it was! I noticed how he got mad at the comments when people kept bringing up Justin Biebers name everytime Selena was winning .lol.
But isn’t that the point of being loved ,you let the other person see you naked,naked in the inside..you let the other person see what you don’t even know you have yourself…
They say the last is the best but may I please correct that,my first was the best,the inexperience, adventure and pain that came with it still lingers on my mind and may I never be put to compare that to anything.
Its like when naive meets naive ..
I Won’t even lie ..his game wasn’t top tier but his thing was so big like big and I’m so honoured to have had my first time with that..
That there was a blessing.
Although we broke my ting for a month.Because anytime he was in, even for 2seconds and it got painful I asked him to stop and he did just that.
Poor guy.
And i knew i joined the club when he came too first one time and his thing shrunk leaving me undone.i couldn’t even hide my annoyance,I wanted him so bad that night and I bet he thought it was the usual 2 seconds.
My nigga didn’t know i graduate.
He was so guilty.
He was the person I told all my dreams..you know those dreams that are so disgusting and scarry and you have to say them aloud so they don’t happen in real life.. well,I hear dreams work like that.Jokes on me.
He picked me up when I was naive .. freshman! my first year in campus,when I wanted to stare at everything, literally everything ..
And by naive I really mean he was there to witness me embarazzzz myself all the time, even on the times I couldn’t tell the difference between flavours like vanilla and strawberries..so when we was in an ice cream shop or yourghut store and I wanted vanilla I’d say
‘niekee Io ya white ‘
nigga couldn’t wait till we were out to mimick me.And we would laugh at me so hard.
Being naive with the right person is so sweet.You just sit there and be yourself
But you know what they say about humans?
Man is not perfect.Man is to err.
it’s like God had to put a fault in everyone of us while moulding us in his ,what we call ‘image and likeness’ and for my man he put alittle bit of cuteness overload of height some shyness,a whole lot of kindness,a pinch of tidiness in him and one hair of beard ..and then he put a monster in him ,he forgot to balance his emotions..
And that’s how I ended up with a man with so much anger issues .Mine had the worst and that was the only thing that sent me packing .
He could send a glass flying past my face or anything that he had at hand.break windows, mirrors ,crashed his phone knocked his hands on a wall even when his team lost one time.
. Just God knows how many nights we spent nursing his hands if not face.
One time he went to the kitchen furious and I yelled ‘no no’ because I really thought he was going for a knife and he laughed .
See madnesss.He kept saying ‘i can never hurt you’
But could you really trust a man who had two complete opposite sides and you don’t even know when he’ll switch to another.
Fadalord!
I never even got to thank you for letting me get out of it in one piece because I never thought I would .
Boy locked the door because I’m the type to pack and leave when things get ugly..
So with time he got smart and rescued the door first thing anytime we had a fight leaving his bathroom be my only rescue when things got heated up..The same bathroom that had seen me moaning also saw me mourning ..
When I was placed on top of that water tank in the bathroom and done good..
And when i was frightened and locked in.
I was getting a little high and the room intense.. but to say he was taking advantage damn i would be lying..
I put this boy through alot and he deserved a last bang or something..
I’m not sure if it was me still speaking or the blunt
But Whatever it was ,kesi badaae
He puts me in and I whisper
‘slowly’ ,
‘What do you mean?this was your first ,it should be compatible I thought’ he says mischievously..
he wasn’t even flirting he was right..
But ‘Aint nobody hit it since you hit it
So hush, hush now..
It thrilled me how he wasn’t so good with words but damn you! he who said actions speaks louder than words wasn’t even bluffing..
This day on my best friends birthday a house party in white as in nothing but smoke.
Except he was alittle tipsy and I was drunk inlove sitted on the love of my lifes’ lap ,and everytime that chain reached us he made sure I took only 2puffs that I chocked on and passed.
People just wanna chill and laugh..
And he stands to pick my bestfriend.
Boy never even dance but he put his hands on her waist moving with every Rythm and making every bit of her day and I was smiling so hard cheering like my best team was on board..
He took one for the team!
And he don’t even know that, that was the happiest day of my life ..
Life is so unfair,it doesn’t even alert you on nothing, because if it did I would have made sure to feel that love twice and take in those memories thrice..
Huskii the best moments in life huwa hunotice until they come to pass
Goddamn it,I almost married my bestfriend,I had a home! now the streets are too cold.
But we are told nothing is permanent huh
You know my bitch also tattooed this niggas name on her arm only to go different ways a month later, and i swear to God it was nothing that couldn’t be fixed.. Maybe the forces of the earth ,fate and motherfuckin destiny were just not in line with their love .
So when you have that that makes you happy .You hold onto it with hope so much hope and embrace the shit out of it as it lasts.
@chebet
