Lovey just turned 5. Being a mother of two but always dreaming of having 5 ,I've come a long way. I now wish I only had one. I only dreamt of the bliss of having a mini-me and Charlie. I forgot I'm trouble myself, don't get me started on Charlie. I mostly thought kids raised themselves or whatever my fantasy was 
. Try entertaining five and two year olds on a daily. I had my first at 19 ,our story is different since I first gave birth at 21. I always knew I wanted my kids early. I had a life plan and it seemed to be going well in my head. I wanted the kids out the house by forty or forty-five so I chose to give up my youth to enjoy my old age, I wanted to travel the world at 40 and spend the three quarters of a year in a different city . You need a bit of fantasy to survive reality but I was deep in fantasy. Raising Lovey as a nineteen year old , barely done with school , with almost nothing to keep us going , let's not forget I was a single mother raising a kid who she didn't give birth to. I had no encouragement from people around me.
"Put him in a centre , a children's home will be good to him , God knows you tried , Give him up before you ruin yourself .
Then came to finding love with a son under my care , I thought of giving the child up to find a man. He seemed to cramp my style. I had given up my curse words for him but for love............that's where I was about to draw the line. I thought parenthood was prancing in a field of roses . It's the tough choices and rough days that make parenthood . The days I badly wanted to add to my closet but my baby needed cereal .
Then came in the second . I wished I could pause time for a minute to get hold of what was going on at the moment . Lovey was still a toddler and here I am introducing a newborn into my life uhm " lady you're stretching yourself thin " .
I was now a mother , a newly wed , I worked and I still had my life that I wanted to add chapters to .
I'd be lying if I said I figured it out with time . No kid is like the other and they all had different routines , they won't sleep or wake up at the same time , they also had different feeding plans
Ruh-roh was the word , I was one more title away from crumbling . I had started scolding Lovey and expecting him to mature instantly .
I thought he was big enough to understand that I had to take care of Tia now , but he was still a toddler still didn't know right and wrong .
My respect for anyone responsible for a little human grew tenfold , you never really know what something entails until you experience it.
I now watch them play as Lovey teaches Tia all that he knows as she stares in adoration.
. Try entertaining five and two year olds on a daily. I had my first at 19 ,our story is different since I first gave birth at 21. I always knew I wanted my kids early. I had a life plan and it seemed to be going well in my head. I wanted the kids out the house by forty or forty-five so I chose to give up my youth to enjoy my old age, I wanted to travel the world at 40 and spend the three quarters of a year in a different city . You need a bit of fantasy to survive reality but I was deep in fantasy. Raising Lovey as a nineteen year old , barely done with school , with almost nothing to keep us going , let's not forget I was a single mother raising a kid who she didn't give birth to. I had no encouragement from people around me."Put him in a centre , a children's home will be good to him , God knows you tried , Give him up before you ruin yourself .
Then came to finding love with a son under my care , I thought of giving the child up to find a man. He seemed to cramp my style. I had given up my curse words for him but for love............that's where I was about to draw the line. I thought parenthood was prancing in a field of roses . It's the tough choices and rough days that make parenthood . The days I badly wanted to add to my closet but my baby needed cereal .
Then came in the second . I wished I could pause time for a minute to get hold of what was going on at the moment . Lovey was still a toddler and here I am introducing a newborn into my life uhm " lady you're stretching yourself thin " .
I was now a mother , a newly wed , I worked and I still had my life that I wanted to add chapters to .
I'd be lying if I said I figured it out with time . No kid is like the other and they all had different routines , they won't sleep or wake up at the same time , they also had different feeding plans
Ruh-roh was the word , I was one more title away from crumbling . I had started scolding Lovey and expecting him to mature instantly .
I thought he was big enough to understand that I had to take care of Tia now , but he was still a toddler still didn't know right and wrong .
My respect for anyone responsible for a little human grew tenfold , you never really know what something entails until you experience it.
I now watch them play as Lovey teaches Tia all that he knows as she stares in adoration.
